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Tuesday July 3rd, 2012

Taking Flight

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One
Sunday morning I was watering trees. Carrying two watering cans, I walked through the tall grass to the tree circle that overlooks the back part of the farm. I looked down to keep my step and continued looking down to water the mulch around the trees. I looked up.

Thousands of small butterflies were hovering over the field, inches above the top of the grass and goldenrod.

These things do not just happen.

It was beautiful. I saw life as a butterfly: a careening, jarring, vertiginous affair. And I thought of Monarch butterflies wavering all the way to Mexico.

Even as each butterfly fluttered, thousands of them made a graceful shimmering veil over the field.  

Two
Once a month I mow an adjacent field. The swallows come to eat the bugs that jump from the freshly mowed grass. They fly around me on the old tractor, gliding and darting, changing direction on a dime with pointed wings, catching grasshoppers mid-jump.

Their motion is like the script in my great grandmother’s journals: a grace fluid and sweeping.

Three
I had a neighbor who was a glider pilot in World War Two. He flew a two-seater from his grass runway and did barrel rolls and loop-de-loops.  He roared over the farm and we wondered how much he had drank that day, and what the chances were of him hitting the house. We listened to his motor strain arching upward. He rolled and held at the apex for a moment before beginning a slow curving glide.

Life is motion and change. Its ballet is not on pointed toes. Fluttering, arching, stuttering; grace in motion lies in its truthfulness.  

The grace we each find in motion is its gift to us. Its expression to others is our gift to the world.

  • Father time

    Pete,
    I am catching up on reading your posts in the midst of summer activities. I thought about commenting on each of your wonderful posts but I felt my comments were somehow unworthy. I want to tell you how touched I am that you reveal and share such deep and poetic aspects of your true self. I think it takes amazing courage and soul to look for these things and stay there long enough to bring enough clarity to articulate them. You make me think of the things you explore, how I am able to understand (or not understand) them, what is and where I find real meaning. Your posts also make me proud of where I am from, who I am (and am not), and fascinated and excited about the rest of my meandering journey and my place in the fabric. You are brave, smart, authentic and best of all my friend.

  • http://www.peterlarson.org/ Pete Larson

    Thanks, this means so much to me. It does not feel courageous, just necessary, as one of my favorite Annie Dillard quotes:

    “Thomas Merton wrote, ‘There is always a temptation to diddle around in the contemplative life, making itsy-bitsy statues.’ There is always an enormous temptation in all of life to diddle around making itsy-bitsy friends and meals and journeys for itsy-bitsy years on end. It is so self-conscious, so apparently moral, simply to step aside from the gaps where the creeks and winds pour down, saying I never merited this grace, quite rightly, and then sulk along the rest of your days on the edge of rage. I won’t have it. The world is wilder than that in all directions, more dangerous and bitter, more extravagant and bright.”

    It’s necessary to discover one’s true foundations and to trust in them; to say, “Whatever comes, this exists.” Firm footing is always found there.

    And it’s bold and so important to say there is no line between this discovery and the rest of life’s laundry.

    And it’s essential to share what’s discovered, to find the commonalities.

    Thank you, my friend, for always being there to share.

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